Mostly i am tired and worn and look the part.
When i am tired, my default mood is C. R. A. B. B. Y. i am a mess. Is that normal or did i get an extra dose of ” not nice lady”?
If i run on instinct and feeling alone, most hours out of your average day or week are not going to be pretty. i have to be intentional in my choices, i have to purpose each day to do the best rather than alot of good.
i purpose to do what matters most. To do what has proven to bring worthy results. To just be stinkin kind. To give more than i require. To think of others for just a moment before i spout my need. To find a gem to treasure in the gravel pit of everydayness.
Yesterday i slugged to the kitchen and baked this,
Because Kaydra’s Cody is moving out of our little neighborhood very soon and it is his favorite and i had brown bananas and it would be good to have for the grandbabies who will be here the next two day.
Everyday most days i read all or part of these daily thoughts. They are filled with sound old wisdom, i can count on them. They bring me back to Truth and Hope and the things that are worthy of intentional commitment.
We have our California Jewels without Mamma and Daddy for the rest of the week.
Pappa filled some buckets with water last night so they would warm overnight. We could have run to Walmart and grabbed a kiddie pool. We are intentionally choosing to treasure what we already have been blessed with + when you are tired and nearing crabby it isn’t wise to add one more thing to the list, at least it is not wise in our neck of the woods. Buckets work just fine, right?
We are all a bit weary from the parade of fun, the baby girls have fevers.
We are going to step over this, yes that is a swing in our kitchen.
We are going to leave this sit right there for later play.
We are ignoring this until a day when the babies aren’t here. We only have THIS moment, that is truth whether they live in California or our basement bedroom.
We are going to laugh. (Kingston was teasing Aunty Kaydra.)
We are going to work together. (Blessing got both babies ready for bed all by herself because “I can just tell you are tired, Mamma.”)
And we will snuggle.
Because these things last. i do not do well in disorder but i can not allow the clatter of the urgent and ever undone to crowd out the important. i must intentionally say no over and over to create room for saying yes to the best.
Say yes to your intentional BEST today. Say no to something that “needs” to be done so you can say yes to something that must be done.
This little guy was exploring Nama and Pappa’s house last night. Several times he said, ” Nama, i member this!” Kingston is a young three year old, he has been to our home a generous handful of time. Nama and Pappa’s is a long trip from California. But he remembers, he is being affected by our choices. We are imprinting those around us whether we are intentional about it or not. (the paci is because Daddy is in California and Mamma is in Milwaukee and Nama and Pappa are pushovers.) Sorry Travis and Melissa, but not all that sorry.
Read something of value today. Stop the rat race long enough to reflect on what you want to remember about today. Make time to invest in another life. Build a relationship. Share a story of hope. Decide what things matter most and do those things intentionally and with all of your heart.
I am going to snuggle those big brown eyes while his sissy sleeps. In 48 hours he will be on a plane headed back to California with his mamma. If we want him to care what we have to say 15 years from now, we will have to prove to him we care and are worthy of his time by sharing legos, and tigers and Toy Story now.
Blog Business: i am not apologizing for the poor iphone pictures. The phone is what i could reach at the moment and that was good enough for me.
Are you tired of my “why the little i?” links yet ?
You should really try that Banana Bread, it is good. Our Cody has eaten most of a loaf.