Misfits

The land of misfit toys….how I adored all those little mistakes who felt unloved.

A favorite Christmas movie, a story of finding a place to belong, even in the  truth that you were clearly one of the unwanted.  As I look back I realize I didn’t so much love the misfit toys but as my heart broke for them, I wanted to fix them. Continue reading

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We will Trick or Treat Today

“Do you do Halloween?”
“Do you Trick or Treat?”
“Are you letting your kids Trick or Treat this year?”
“Why can’t we Trick or Treat?!?!?  It’s just Candy and Fun!!!”

Our German Girl, Asia and Africa

Our German Girl, Asia and Africa

Those are the questions that have swirled through our 30 years of parenting Octobers. Continue reading

It is one thing to say it, quite another to have to live it

My Blessing and i

My Blessing and i

i do not know all much, but i do know the one who knows all and i do know HE loves and cares enough to meet us right where we are and be all that we need in that moment.

i guess it wouldn’t  be fair if i wrote words like those and then didn’t have to live it.

i posted those words Thursday morning, Thursday afternoon i made a quick stop at the local dance studio and was complimented on our parenting skills ad nauseam, approximately 2.34 hours later my parenting confidence was shattered and i have fluctuated between anger, broken hearted and weeping mess for the past 4 days.

Years ago i was doing a bible study that posed the question…

List an attribute of your Lord and Saviour you treasure.

My answer…”His Faithfulness to give us the hard, he is not a Father who coddles and spoils, he asks us to give up our comfort and understanding that he may give us his best, i love that about My Lord.”

Mostly i have hated these past 4 days. i have found it hard to love anything about what the Lord is doing in my heart.  It stinks to hurt and it hurts to see our need and our child’s need.

If i am becoming confident of anything in my parenting journey it is this…

i have about 500 wedding pictures for once i learn how to do this

i have about 500 wedding pictures for you once i learn how to do this

Our 5 children were given to Tim and i for the refining of Tim and i. Each of them could have been wonderfully cared for in a million other homes, but he choose ours. Our Blessing would have been spared much pain if her Saviour had swept her into HIS arms and took her to Heaven from that orphanage crib, but he knew what Tim and i needed and He loved us too much to give us easy. He Blessed us with a Blessing that we could never have imagined when he gave us this sweet one. He is faithfully moment by moment reminding us of our need, our brokenness and our inability. i am painfully aware that i can not fix my child’s pain and brokenness. I can not figure it all out, i would default to “take the next step” except i don’t have any idea where to place my foot.

Which all leaves me very afraid and needing.

I wake at 4 am feeling deep vulnerability, i lay my hand on our precious child’s back and can only say “We need you Jesus, we need you!”

And that is where HE meets me, that is when my heart is willing to hear His whispered promises.

And they sang a new song, saying,

“Worthy are you,

for you were slain, and by your blood you ransomed people for God

   from every tribe and language and people and nation,

10 and you have made them a kingdom and priests to our God,

   and they shall reign on the earth.” Revelations 5:9-10

My Faithful Lord has bought our redemption with His precious son’s blood. He alone can figure this out, He has it all covered, He is worthy of my trust.

The Fatherless find their rest at the sound of your great name, the sick are healed at the sound of your great name. Please take a moment and click over to YouTube and soak in this hope that is ours. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zpLPh6LibE

Here is a link to a great reading detailing the hope and power in the truth of this song.http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/a-worship-song-worthy-of-eternity

Our suffering is no surprise to our Loving Father…

Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ . . . not frightened in anything by your opponents. For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake. Philippians 1:27–29

Paul told the Philippians that living worthy of the gospel of Christ meant fearlessness before enemies. Then he gave the logic of fearlessness.

The logic is this: God has given you two gifts, not just one — faith and suffering.

This challenge is a gift from our Loving Father, so is the Faith to live the challenge. You can read more here…God-Given Foes and Faith – devotional by John Piper   http://dsr.gd/12t0zVk

My heart still feels the physical ache of knowing how broken we are here in the Fish Pond. i still cry, a lot! But more importantly my heart Knows the ONE who knows it all. I know HIS son suffered that our girl might have healing and redemption. He is worthy of my trust, He is worthy of my obedience in taking the next step as i trust HE will direct where my foot lands. I will click these links, i will listen, i will read over and over, as many times as it take to renew this trembling heart and wondering mind of mine. i will model for my sweet Blessing today that He alone is worthy of our devotion and praise. I will rest in the only answer we need over here in our little pond.

His Great Name

Jesus

Favorite Things

December 1, 2014 by Nama

My heart is full to exploding, i tend to pull inside and savor when all is well and busy and full, i am more apt to ramble when my heart and mind is busy sorting and figuring.  Time will pass and the details of this miracle season in our home will be forgotten. Baby Coffee needs to know how amazing this season has been, our entire family needs to remember the God of this season. We need to share how blessed Nama and Pappa are to be on the outside looking in on His miraculous work of redemption.

On this Monday, here are some of my favorite things from the past weeks: Continue reading

Tax Deduction?? Yes !!!

November 18. 2014 by Nama

You need a tax deduction as we move to the close of 2014.

There is a tiny baby girl in Florida about to show her beautiful little face who needs her Mommy, Daddy, Brother and Sissy.

Your donation to Travis and Melissa’s adoption fund may be tax deductible.

https://www.adopttogether.org/thefischerfamily

Is my donation tax-deductible?
AdoptTogether.org is a project of Hoping Hearts Foundation Inc, a federally recognized 501(c)(3) charitable organization. Therefore, your donation may be tax-deductible. Please consult your tax advisor for specific tax advice.

All the information you may need is on the “how it works” page of the adopttogether link above.

Please consider whether  this Christmas Miracle is one you can be a part of.

baby-adoption-christmas-miracle//Namafish.comYesterday, we hung Baby Girl’s tiny Christmas Stocking with Mommy, Daddy, Kingston, Reana and the twelve other Fisch who will be waiting for her arrival in WI just in time for Christmas.

For Such a Time…

November 15, 2014 by Nama

This is it…baby will arrive ANY DAY !!

There are just a few weeks remaining until baby girl’s due date, but as we all know arriving babies do not tend towards checking calendars and the experts last week suspected she may think she should arrive a bit early. Soooooo……..

BRINGING BABY HOME-Namafish.com

This is what happens each time i check the adopt together fund raiser Continue reading