Misfits

The land of misfit toys….how I adored all those little mistakes who felt unloved.

A favorite Christmas movie, a story of finding a place to belong, even in the  truth that you were clearly one of the unwanted.  As I look back I realize I didn’t so much love the misfit toys but as my heart broke for them, I wanted to fix them. Continue reading

It is one thing to say it, quite another to have to live it

My Blessing and i

My Blessing and i

i do not know all much, but i do know the one who knows all and i do know HE loves and cares enough to meet us right where we are and be all that we need in that moment.

i guess it wouldn’t  be fair if i wrote words like those and then didn’t have to live it.

i posted those words Thursday morning, Thursday afternoon i made a quick stop at the local dance studio and was complimented on our parenting skills ad nauseam, approximately 2.34 hours later my parenting confidence was shattered and i have fluctuated between anger, broken hearted and weeping mess for the past 4 days.

Years ago i was doing a bible study that posed the question…

List an attribute of your Lord and Saviour you treasure.

My answer…”His Faithfulness to give us the hard, he is not a Father who coddles and spoils, he asks us to give up our comfort and understanding that he may give us his best, i love that about My Lord.”

Mostly i have hated these past 4 days. i have found it hard to love anything about what the Lord is doing in my heart.  It stinks to hurt and it hurts to see our need and our child’s need.

If i am becoming confident of anything in my parenting journey it is this…

i have about 500 wedding pictures for once i learn how to do this

i have about 500 wedding pictures for you once i learn how to do this

Our 5 children were given to Tim and i for the refining of Tim and i. Each of them could have been wonderfully cared for in a million other homes, but he choose ours. Our Blessing would have been spared much pain if her Saviour had swept her into HIS arms and took her to Heaven from that orphanage crib, but he knew what Tim and i needed and He loved us too much to give us easy. He Blessed us with a Blessing that we could never have imagined when he gave us this sweet one. He is faithfully moment by moment reminding us of our need, our brokenness and our inability. i am painfully aware that i can not fix my child’s pain and brokenness. I can not figure it all out, i would default to “take the next step” except i don’t have any idea where to place my foot.

Which all leaves me very afraid and needing.

I wake at 4 am feeling deep vulnerability, i lay my hand on our precious child’s back and can only say “We need you Jesus, we need you!”

And that is where HE meets me, that is when my heart is willing to hear His whispered promises.

And they sang a new song, saying,

“Worthy are you,

for you were slain, and by your blood you ransomed people for God

   from every tribe and language and people and nation,

10 and you have made them a kingdom and priests to our God,

   and they shall reign on the earth.” Revelations 5:9-10

My Faithful Lord has bought our redemption with His precious son’s blood. He alone can figure this out, He has it all covered, He is worthy of my trust.

The Fatherless find their rest at the sound of your great name, the sick are healed at the sound of your great name. Please take a moment and click over to YouTube and soak in this hope that is ours. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zpLPh6LibE

Here is a link to a great reading detailing the hope and power in the truth of this song.http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/a-worship-song-worthy-of-eternity

Our suffering is no surprise to our Loving Father…

Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ . . . not frightened in anything by your opponents. For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake. Philippians 1:27–29

Paul told the Philippians that living worthy of the gospel of Christ meant fearlessness before enemies. Then he gave the logic of fearlessness.

The logic is this: God has given you two gifts, not just one — faith and suffering.

This challenge is a gift from our Loving Father, so is the Faith to live the challenge. You can read more here…God-Given Foes and Faith – devotional by John Piper   http://dsr.gd/12t0zVk

My heart still feels the physical ache of knowing how broken we are here in the Fish Pond. i still cry, a lot! But more importantly my heart Knows the ONE who knows it all. I know HIS son suffered that our girl might have healing and redemption. He is worthy of my trust, He is worthy of my obedience in taking the next step as i trust HE will direct where my foot lands. I will click these links, i will listen, i will read over and over, as many times as it take to renew this trembling heart and wondering mind of mine. i will model for my sweet Blessing today that He alone is worthy of our devotion and praise. I will rest in the only answer we need over here in our little pond.

His Great Name

Jesus

Honored to Need the Babe in the Manger

December 5, 2014 by Nama

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i was up at 4am doing laundry, suitcases are everywhere, piles are a mile high. Adrenaline is high, excitement electric, this is the day we have been waiting for.

Final preparation and one last night of rest in our beds. I board a 2pm flight tomorrow to meet Travis and Melissa on their journey to their baby girl. Tim and Blessing board an 8pm flight to spend  9 days in Dallas with our Fischer Family. Tim’s mom has not been well. Tim needs to go, please pray. 

It is tempting to believe we are a breath away from the finish line in this journey. The  next weeks will hold so much more than we can imagine or anticipate. There is much that is unknown and uncertain.

One sweet first mamma will say the hardest good-bye she has ever had to say. And this after she has labored and delivered or been through major surgery.

Lifetime Mamma and Daddy will wait in prayerful faith that the process will be completed as they ache for it to be. We wait for them to  be granted the privilege of nurturing one tiny girl into the truth and hope of HIS Love.  All this as their hearts break for the birth mamma who is trusting her most precious treasure to them.

Two precious toddlers, with ear infections and pink eye will leave their security and familiar, entering a whirlwind of crazy change and unfamiliar.

It is not easy to leave My Man and our girls.

My Man would prefer to have me in Texas as we walk this season with our Fischer Family.

My Man would prefer to have Me with Blessing at this time.  Blessing would prefer to be with Mamma. I would prefer to be SUPERNAMA and be everywhere, managing all things.

Emotions will be high, exhaustion will dominate.

We have no doubts, we know we are each headed in the directions we need to be going.We feel beyond blessed to be allowed to join in these journeys with those we love most.

And…

The Baby we Celebrate in this season, Our Saviour, will be right in the midst of it all orchestrating every single detail.

Our pray is this…

That all will see Calvary and the Love that was sent in this Christmas season through every single detail of the weeks to come for the Fischer Family.

When i opened this devo today and read John Piper’s words there was a sweet calm assurance…all we need to know is that our Lord and Saviour holds each tiny detail in His loving hands.

DEVOTIONAL FOR DECEMBER 5

No Detour from Calvary

John Piper

And while they were there, the time came for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son and wrapped him in swaddling cloths and laid him in a manger, because there was no place for them in the inn. (Luke 2:6–7)

Now you would think that if God so rules the world as to use an empire-wide census to bring Mary and Joseph to Bethlehem, he surely could have seen to it that a room was available in the inn.

Yes, he could have. And Jesus could have been born into a wealthy family. He could have turned stone into bread in the wilderness. He could have called 10,000 angels to his aid in Gethsemane. He could have come down from the cross and saved himself. The question is not what God could do, but what he willed to do.

God’s will was that though Christ was rich, yet for your sake he became poor. The “No Vacancy” signs over all the motels in Bethlehem were for your sake. “For your sake he became poor” (2 Corinthians 8:9).

God rules all things — even motel capacities — for the sake of his children. The Calvary road begins with a “No Vacancy” sign in Bethlehem and ends with the spitting and scoffing of the cross in Jerusalem.

And we must not forget that he said, “He who would come after me must deny himself and take up his cross.”

We join him on the Calvary road and hear him say, “Remember the word that I said to you, ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will persecute you” (John 15:20).

To the one who calls out enthusiastically, “I will follow you wherever you go!” Jesus responds, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.”

Yes, God could have seen to it that Jesus have a room at his birth. But that would have been a detour off the Calvary road.

And so as i see it all we really have left to ask is this…

Do i trust HIS love, His plan and His power ?

Do i desire, above all else, that every moment of my life will point other’s to the gift of the Manger, making the way for Calvary.

Favorite Things

December 1, 2014 by Nama

My heart is full to exploding, i tend to pull inside and savor when all is well and busy and full, i am more apt to ramble when my heart and mind is busy sorting and figuring.  Time will pass and the details of this miracle season in our home will be forgotten. Baby Coffee needs to know how amazing this season has been, our entire family needs to remember the God of this season. We need to share how blessed Nama and Pappa are to be on the outside looking in on His miraculous work of redemption.

On this Monday, here are some of my favorite things from the past weeks: Continue reading

Tax Deduction?? Yes !!!

November 18. 2014 by Nama

You need a tax deduction as we move to the close of 2014.

There is a tiny baby girl in Florida about to show her beautiful little face who needs her Mommy, Daddy, Brother and Sissy.

Your donation to Travis and Melissa’s adoption fund may be tax deductible.

https://www.adopttogether.org/thefischerfamily

Is my donation tax-deductible?
AdoptTogether.org is a project of Hoping Hearts Foundation Inc, a federally recognized 501(c)(3) charitable organization. Therefore, your donation may be tax-deductible. Please consult your tax advisor for specific tax advice.

All the information you may need is on the “how it works” page of the adopttogether link above.

Please consider whether  this Christmas Miracle is one you can be a part of.

baby-adoption-christmas-miracle//Namafish.comYesterday, we hung Baby Girl’s tiny Christmas Stocking with Mommy, Daddy, Kingston, Reana and the twelve other Fisch who will be waiting for her arrival in WI just in time for Christmas.

For Such a Time…

November 15, 2014 by Nama

This is it…baby will arrive ANY DAY !!

There are just a few weeks remaining until baby girl’s due date, but as we all know arriving babies do not tend towards checking calendars and the experts last week suspected she may think she should arrive a bit early. Soooooo……..

BRINGING BABY HOME-Namafish.com

This is what happens each time i check the adopt together fund raiser Continue reading

Bringing Baby Home…Which state is Nama Flying to?

October 17, 2014 by Nama

i had the privilege of just buying a one way plane ticket to travel to share the excitement of bringing our 6th Grandbaby home.

Christmas-Pajamas-Grandbaby-santa//namafish.comI also bought 7 pair of Christmas Jammies because we will have a little tiny 6th Grandbaby joining our already 5 and Aunty Blessing by Christmas.

For all of you following along on our adventure, this little one holds more secrets and surprises because of the very special way this tiny gift is coming to our family.  Travis and Melissa are very thoughtfully sharing the details they feel free to share about their newest baby as they feel it is appropriate, they have decided that we get to know what state their little one will be coming home from.

Now all of you can get in on the fun and excitement of getting to know our 6th little Jewel, Travis and Melissa’s 3rd child. Continue reading