Blessing and i are caring for Travis and Melissa’s 3 children for 7 days, we are 1.5 days in and i am so grateful for the mothering style Melissa has developed. Continue reading
i do not know
all much, but i do know the one who knows all and i do know HE loves and cares enough to meet us right where we are and be all that we need in that moment.
i guess it wouldn’t be fair if i wrote words like those and then didn’t have to live it.
i posted those words Thursday morning, Thursday afternoon i made a quick stop at the local dance studio and was complimented on our parenting skills ad nauseam, approximately 2.34 hours later my parenting confidence was shattered and i have fluctuated between anger, broken hearted and weeping mess for the past 4 days.
Years ago i was doing a bible study that posed the question…
List an attribute of your Lord and Saviour you treasure.
My answer…”His Faithfulness to give us the hard, he is not a Father who coddles and spoils, he asks us to give up our comfort and understanding that he may give us his best, i love that about My Lord.”
Mostly i have hated these past 4 days. i have found it hard to love anything about what the Lord is doing in my heart. It stinks to hurt and it hurts to see our need and our child’s need.
If i am becoming confident of anything in my parenting journey it is this…
Our 5 children were given to Tim and i for the refining of Tim and i. Each of them could have been wonderfully cared for in a million other homes, but he choose ours. Our Blessing would have been spared much pain if her Saviour had swept her into HIS arms and took her to Heaven from that orphanage crib, but he knew what Tim and i needed and He loved us too much to give us easy. He Blessed us with a Blessing that we could never have imagined when he gave us this sweet one. He is faithfully moment by moment reminding us of our need, our brokenness and our inability. i am painfully aware that i can not fix my child’s pain and brokenness. I can not figure it all out, i would default to “take the next step” except i don’t have any idea where to place my foot.
Which all leaves me very afraid and needing.
I wake at 4 am feeling deep vulnerability, i lay my hand on our precious child’s back and can only say “We need you Jesus, we need you!”
And that is where HE meets me, that is when my heart is willing to hear His whispered promises.
And they sang a new song, saying,
“Worthy are you,
for you were slain, and by your blood you ransomed people for God
from every tribe and language and people and nation,
10 and you have made them a kingdom and priests to our God,
and they shall reign on the earth.” Revelations 5:9-10
My Faithful Lord has bought our redemption with His precious son’s blood. He alone can figure this out, He has it all covered, He is worthy of my trust.
The Fatherless find their rest at the sound of your great name, the sick are healed at the sound of your great name. Please take a moment and click over to YouTube and soak in this hope that is ours. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3zpLPh6LibE
Here is a link to a great reading detailing the hope and power in the truth of this song.http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/a-worship-song-worthy-of-eternity
Our suffering is no surprise to our Loving Father…
Only let your manner of life be worthy of the gospel of Christ . . . not frightened in anything by your opponents. For it has been granted to you that for the sake of Christ you should not only believe in him but also suffer for his sake. Philippians 1:27–29
Paul told the Philippians that living worthy of the gospel of Christ meant fearlessness before enemies. Then he gave the logic of fearlessness.
The logic is this: God has given you two gifts, not just one — faith and suffering.
This challenge is a gift from our Loving Father, so is the Faith to live the challenge. You can read more here…God-Given Foes and Faith – devotional by John Piper http://dsr.gd/12t0zVk
My heart still feels the physical ache of knowing how broken we are here in the Fish Pond. i still cry, a lot! But more importantly my heart Knows the ONE who knows it all. I know HIS son suffered that our girl might have healing and redemption. He is worthy of my trust, He is worthy of my obedience in taking the next step as i trust HE will direct where my foot lands. I will click these links, i will listen, i will read over and over, as many times as it take to renew this trembling heart and wondering mind of mine. i will model for my sweet Blessing today that He alone is worthy of our devotion and praise. I will rest in the only answer we need over here in our little pond.
His Great Name
Yes, he could have. And Jesus could have been born into a wealthy family. He could have turned stone into bread in the wilderness. He could have called 10,000 angels to his aid in Gethsemane. He could have come down from the cross and saved himself. The question is not what God could do, but what he willed to do.
God’s will was that though Christ was rich, yet for your sake he became poor. The “No Vacancy” signs over all the motels in Bethlehem were for your sake. “For your sake he became poor” (2 Corinthians 8:9).
God rules all things — even motel capacities — for the sake of his children. The Calvary road begins with a “No Vacancy” sign in Bethlehem and ends with the spitting and scoffing of the cross in Jerusalem.
And we must not forget that he said, “He who would come after me must deny himself and take up his cross.”
We join him on the Calvary road and hear him say, “Remember the word that I said to you, ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will persecute you” (John 15:20).
To the one who calls out enthusiastically, “I will follow you wherever you go!” Jesus responds, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.”
Yes, God could have seen to it that Jesus have a room at his birth. But that would have been a detour off the Calvary road.
And so as i see it all we really have left to ask is this…
Do i trust HIS love, His plan and His power ?
Do i desire, above all else, that every moment of my life will point other’s to the gift of the Manger, making the way for Calvary.
December 1, 2014 by Nama
My heart is full to exploding, i tend to pull inside and savor when all is well and busy and full, i am more apt to ramble when my heart and mind is busy sorting and figuring. Time will pass and the details of this miracle season in our home will be forgotten. Baby Coffee needs to know how amazing this season has been, our entire family needs to remember the God of this season. We need to share how blessed Nama and Pappa are to be on the outside looking in on His miraculous work of redemption.
On this Monday, here are some of my favorite things from the past weeks: Continue reading
November 18. 2014 by Nama
You need a tax deduction as we move to the close of 2014.
There is a tiny baby girl in Florida about to show her beautiful little face who needs her Mommy, Daddy, Brother and Sissy.
Your donation to Travis and Melissa’s adoption fund may be tax deductible.
Is my donation tax-deductible?
AdoptTogether.org is a project of Hoping Hearts Foundation Inc, a federally recognized 501(c)(3) charitable organization. Therefore, your donation may be tax-deductible. Please consult your tax advisor for specific tax advice.
All the information you may need is on the “how it works” page of the adopttogether link above.
Please consider whether this Christmas Miracle is one you can be a part of.
November 15, 2014 by Nama
This is it…baby will arrive ANY DAY !!
There are just a few weeks remaining until baby girl’s due date, but as we all know arriving babies do not tend towards checking calendars and the experts last week suspected she may think she should arrive a bit early. Soooooo……..
This is what happens each time i check the adopt together fund raiser Continue reading
October 20, 2014 by Nama
Marriage by His design is my second deepest heart passion.
To know and love my Saviour, prayerfully pointing others to HIS worthiness is number one.
i come from a home that suffered the hell of divorce twice; i watched my mamma persevere through two marriages that brought unfaithfulness and betrayal as she parented 9 children, primarily alone. Having watched my mom’s heartbreak I headed towards adulthood pleading with my Lord for a marriage that would last, a marriage that would cause others to praise our worthy Lord and Saviour. Continue reading