The land of misfit toys….how I adored all those little mistakes who felt unloved.

A favorite Christmas movie, a story of finding a place to belong, even in the  truth that you were clearly one of the unwanted.  As I look back I realize I didn’t so much love the misfit toys but as my heart broke for them, I wanted to fix them. Continue reading

Honored to Need the Babe in the Manger

December 5, 2014 by Nama


i was up at 4am doing laundry, suitcases are everywhere, piles are a mile high. Adrenaline is high, excitement electric, this is the day we have been waiting for.

Final preparation and one last night of rest in our beds. I board a 2pm flight tomorrow to meet Travis and Melissa on their journey to their baby girl. Tim and Blessing board an 8pm flight to spend  9 days in Dallas with our Fischer Family. Tim’s mom has not been well. Tim needs to go, please pray. 

It is tempting to believe we are a breath away from the finish line in this journey. The  next weeks will hold so much more than we can imagine or anticipate. There is much that is unknown and uncertain.

One sweet first mamma will say the hardest good-bye she has ever had to say. And this after she has labored and delivered or been through major surgery.

Lifetime Mamma and Daddy will wait in prayerful faith that the process will be completed as they ache for it to be. We wait for them to  be granted the privilege of nurturing one tiny girl into the truth and hope of HIS Love.  All this as their hearts break for the birth mamma who is trusting her most precious treasure to them.

Two precious toddlers, with ear infections and pink eye will leave their security and familiar, entering a whirlwind of crazy change and unfamiliar.

It is not easy to leave My Man and our girls.

My Man would prefer to have me in Texas as we walk this season with our Fischer Family.

My Man would prefer to have Me with Blessing at this time.  Blessing would prefer to be with Mamma. I would prefer to be SUPERNAMA and be everywhere, managing all things.

Emotions will be high, exhaustion will dominate.

We have no doubts, we know we are each headed in the directions we need to be going.We feel beyond blessed to be allowed to join in these journeys with those we love most.


The Baby we Celebrate in this season, Our Saviour, will be right in the midst of it all orchestrating every single detail.

Our pray is this…

That all will see Calvary and the Love that was sent in this Christmas season through every single detail of the weeks to come for the Fischer Family.

When i opened this devo today and read John Piper’s words there was a sweet calm assurance…all we need to know is that our Lord and Saviour holds each tiny detail in His loving hands.


No Detour from Calvary

John Piper

And while they were there, the time came for her to give birth. And she gave birth to her firstborn son and wrapped him in swaddling cloths and laid him in a manger, because there was no place for them in the inn. (Luke 2:6–7)

Now you would think that if God so rules the world as to use an empire-wide census to bring Mary and Joseph to Bethlehem, he surely could have seen to it that a room was available in the inn.

Yes, he could have. And Jesus could have been born into a wealthy family. He could have turned stone into bread in the wilderness. He could have called 10,000 angels to his aid in Gethsemane. He could have come down from the cross and saved himself. The question is not what God could do, but what he willed to do.

God’s will was that though Christ was rich, yet for your sake he became poor. The “No Vacancy” signs over all the motels in Bethlehem were for your sake. “For your sake he became poor” (2 Corinthians 8:9).

God rules all things — even motel capacities — for the sake of his children. The Calvary road begins with a “No Vacancy” sign in Bethlehem and ends with the spitting and scoffing of the cross in Jerusalem.

And we must not forget that he said, “He who would come after me must deny himself and take up his cross.”

We join him on the Calvary road and hear him say, “Remember the word that I said to you, ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted me, they will persecute you” (John 15:20).

To the one who calls out enthusiastically, “I will follow you wherever you go!” Jesus responds, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.”

Yes, God could have seen to it that Jesus have a room at his birth. But that would have been a detour off the Calvary road.

And so as i see it all we really have left to ask is this…

Do i trust HIS love, His plan and His power ?

Do i desire, above all else, that every moment of my life will point other’s to the gift of the Manger, making the way for Calvary.

Favorite Things

December 1, 2014 by Nama

My heart is full to exploding, i tend to pull inside and savor when all is well and busy and full, i am more apt to ramble when my heart and mind is busy sorting and figuring.  Time will pass and the details of this miracle season in our home will be forgotten. Baby Coffee needs to know how amazing this season has been, our entire family needs to remember the God of this season. We need to share how blessed Nama and Pappa are to be on the outside looking in on His miraculous work of redemption.

On this Monday, here are some of my favorite things from the past weeks: Continue reading

It Is Sufficient

August 6, by Nama

But he said to me,

“My grace is enough for you,

for my power is made perfect in weakness.” So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me.—2 Cor 12:9 NET

i needed this reminder and hope in a desperate way Tuesday Morning, in the past 24 hours i have had the privilege of reminding two friends, His Grace IS enough for right now, in this messy hard… Continue reading

Blessed~To Need Him

i woke this morning electrically excited for a DEAR friend, her husband and their “already” children.  One week from today, 7 days from today our friends will trust a world of others with the houseful of babies they already nurture and board a plane for a land far away to collect two tiny special needs children (both 5 years old) who have been waiting all these long years for their mamma and daddy.  The miracle, the energy, the magic of the journey into adoption is so incredibly amazing.

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Within seconds of the adrenaline rush of realizing the calendar had moved and the “days to travel” counter was now in the one week range, 7!!, my heart took a sharp turn and i began to feel the grief my friend will process this week.  Much ALL will change for this mamma, daddy and their houseful of littles the moment they board that plane.  Why would you say yes to something that guarantees so much upheaval, adjustment and sacrifice?  There will be big sacrifice and selflessness required for every member of their family.

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Yesterday i shot Tim a desperate text, “call me if you have a moment and the energy for a rant”.  Tim called on his lunch hour, i tried to be grown up and logical but the moment i heard his voice i spiraled into a crying baby + a tantruming two year old.  Sparing you the unnecessary muck, our morning had begun WAY to early with an unexplainable amount of energy and creativity.  Things were escalating by the moment, disappointment entered, “poor me” crossed my mind and i agreed with “that lie” one moment too long.

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In the midst, my Blondie came home with a treat from Starbucks for me. She was caught in the crossfire, there was no energy or time to sit and chat wedding or hear about her morning at work.  i was done, or wanted to be done, or go back to the woods or rant to My Man.  i sent my SOS; pretty much the answer is always the same from Tim, life is only hard if you let it be, God is enough, be nice and do the right thing, be dependent on His Grace.  As it always goes, Tim listens to the many offenses i “need” to vent but he hears my sin and directs me back to what i have to do to smooth the waters.  Tim’s only specific guidance was, “make sure you do not say anything out of your hurt and sadness that will hurt Blessing’s heart.”  i am sad to tell you, honestly, some things had already been said that i had to apologize to our sweet girl for.

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A bit later Blessing was at Library Club; i claimed a quiet corner and used my time to read some truth.

…in stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labors . . .” (2 Corinthians 6:5)— in all these things, display in your life a drawing on the grace of God, which will show evidence to yourself and to others that you are a miracle of His. Draw on His grace now, not later. The primary word in the spiritual vocabulary is now. Let circumstances take you where they will, but keep drawing on the grace of God in whatever condition you may find yourself.  The entire study is found here: http://utmost.org/drawing-on-the-grace-of-god—-now/.  It is worth your time.

Well look at that…just about the same stuff My Man pointed me back to.  i wonder if i could possibly learn to run to His Grace with my rants and spare Tim the headache.

Here is the deal; Blessing and i had a full afternoon ahead of us when our train veered off the tracks.  When Tim helped me redirect, i still felt incredible frustration.  i did what i knew was right but did not feel any of it.  i spoke gently (sheer will), i apologized (fighting a grudge), i let go of a bunch of junk (heart still aching), i made a deal with my girl, “if mamma chooses patience and gentleness for the rest of the day will you choose obedience and kindness?” She said yes, i had my doubts…she is an impulsive 10 year old,  at this point i would be a bit surprised if  i kept  my end of the deal.  Six hours later we were pulling back into the neighborhood, Blessing was silly singing, we were gut giggling together and i spontaneously said “ahhh, Blessing what a fun day we have had together.”  As i heard the words come from my heart, i was taken aback; actually we had started with a really rough day, some ugly sin and lots of material for resentment and angst.  Where had “Fun Day” snuck in, when had giggles and silly songs shown up?  His Grace is enough for my most common everyday challenges. i know he redeems the big and bad stuff, but maybe more amazing is when we see Him redeem the everyday selfishness, disappointed expectations, harsh tones and lashing words.

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As i feel the reality of all the challenges my dear adopting friend is facing i know the cost and pain very personally, yet it is so easy to switch back to ecstatic excitement because i know without a doubt that feeling my weakness more often, doubting my ability constantly, hearing my selfishness scream louder is the only path to knowing HIS Grace more clearly.  When i am weak, HE is strong.  When i am alone, HE is my all.

My sweet sweet obedient friend, charge ahead with full confidence and joy, you are stepping into a whole new beautiful “knowing” of your Lord’s Grace,of his provision, his comfort and strength.  i promise you the challenges will be there, this is so good because we only need HIM and call on HIM when we can no longer manage on our own. That is hard, that is beautiful!

There will be plenty of days when you have to “just deal” with whatever it is that day…

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Just be certain you are not “dealing” in your own strength and ability, you can not do this on your own.

Keep your eyes on your Lord,

Run into His Grace,

and know that Needing Him is the very best place you could be.

Please pray for our friends as they enter the Great Adventure our Lord has written for their family.